its already valentines day! whew!
and again, as in all occasions, naisip ko na last v-day ko na 'to na di pa ko misis! hehehe.... funny how it is that while i'm all excited for my upcoming wedding a part of me thinks that i might miss on some things only single women do. yup, there are times that i think it would be fun to be spending time with friends or officemates, but then i've made plans to be with tabs, or spend the day with his family. but looking back i don't think i would ever regret those decisions i made. its been almost 9 years since we exchanged our first i love you's and suffice it to say, its still said with the same emotions and kilig as it was the first time. Well, now it means so much more than just the i love you. but the thing is that, we all choose the path in life that we take, and this path i chose, i know, will make me happiest. i think the 9 year relationship itself was filled, to some extent, of what-ifs. Even tabs would sometimes comment how he wishes he went out on dates, had other girlfriends... stuff like that. but still the choice he made was to stick to me (i'm so glad he did!).
everone thinks its time for us to get married already. they are probably right. it's been a long time to "get to know each other". and while there will always be uncertainties as to the life we will live after december 3, i know that its something we've worked hard for and something we can get through together. there are fears, i have them too, fears such as: what if i don't make a good life? what if we can't get by financially? what if he doesn't come home at night because he wants to play the pc at the office?, what if? see, my fears are not that bad, don't you think, i don't fear that our marriage won't work, because i know it will, not about loyalty, not about trust, definitely no doubts about love. hay.... sometimes i get to think of these things because of all the excitement of preparing. ;-)
was thrilled nga pala when tabs called this afternoon asking me about dinner tonight. kakakilig! i was actually (really!!!) not expecting a date na kasi its a really hectic week for me and i have class till 9:30. so imagine how happy i was when he asked me what we'll do tomorrow. Unfortunately i can't NOT attend the marketing class tomorrow because i've missed so much already with all my absences there. i do hope tabs will agree to just have dinner at katipunan and take me hope so we don't need to go too far.
i'm seeking inspiration right now before i finish my marketing paper. i think i'll be like this for the rest of the week. sleepless nights. waaah!!! I actually just slept around 10-12 (i wake up every 20 min though) and i don't really plan to sleep anymore till morning. i want to finish up on the paper and after that the two chapter summaries i've been working on yesterday. so i don't have to bring my OB Book tomorrow, hehehe.... its not cool to be out with your boyfriend in a really nice attire and carrying a book. hahaha.... its not cool to use a folder too, but hey, i don't have a choice. studies can really ruin social life! hahaha... i wonder though if i should buy tabs a valentine's gift? I actually bought him the excelsior spa discount card, i wanted him to try it out too, but now i'm thinking that it would be nice to give him something tomorrow. well of course, i'm not expecting anything from him! really, is this maturity? i've actually accepted the fact that he's not the unpredictable, "ill give you roses today" type of guy. he's just the practical, down-to-earth, intelligent man that i love so much! in our 9 years of being together he has given me flowers for a total of 3 times: (1) JS prom, 4th year - actually it was a corsage; (2) First valentines together, 1997; (3) that one time he surprised me with a bouquet of flowers for no reason at all. this was the best of course, shock of my life! hahaha! imagine, someone who does not give flowers giving you one for no occasion at all. hahaha.... i imagine how i must have looked that day, good thing i don't have a weak heart! i might have suffered a heart attack right then and there!
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